At the beginning of the jounrney to the past…
Still
As I sit here with nothing to do,
Only empty thoughts running through my head,
Trying to imagine how life will be in the near future,
I find myself recalling random phrases once said,
“My mama always tells me, life is like a box of chocolates”,
“You want to know the difference between us? I have class and you don’t!”
And yet, I’m still lost in my thoughts of nothingness,
What is wrong me? What is coming over me? I need to be in control!
Alas, time is still passing and nothing is filling up my mind,
Can’t believe I’m just sitting here, typing, trying to make words rhyme.
So, as one of The Lion King’s soundtracks song titled, Circle of life,
What does it mean? Life goes round in circles? Like karma maybe?
I think there’s a certain amount of truth in it, whether it’s actions done to another,
Or the reality of life’s process from the death of an aged man to a newborn baby,
Here I ponder on the journey life has brought me so far,
On the one hand, it’s surreal and unbelievable, on the other, what else, if not so?
It is a good or great thing being where or who I am today?
Comparing to the lesser known, perhaps I am, comparing to the legends, I’m just a Jane Doe,
Is this a sign that I’m not content with my life? If I’m content, does it mean I’m ready to die?
All these questions are provocative yet I stare at it and only heave a sigh…
Moving along at every tick of the clock, but back to square one all the same,
Life is a journey forward according to time, but living it always seems a journey to the past,
Every now and again, I find myself at the beginning, which people however, kindly call it a crossroad,
Is life supposed to be a maze? Or is centrally located at the Bermuda Triangle? Feeling lost one moment and the next for air it gasped,
Questions, oh questions, many have been posted to intellectuals,
They may score a hundred and ten on facts and figures but can’t even answer a simple one as, what is the meaning of life?
I know that I’ll still be left clueless when I finish writing this, still stuck in the rut that I’m in,
Well, as many always say in situation like this, "I’m only human", asking whys even though knowing there’s no appropriate answers to the replies,
So, I best begin my journey now, my solitary journey to the past,
To figure out answers to get me into the future, knowing that home base is where I’ll come back to anyway, at last.
-Adèle- (26.07.07; 2.05pm)
