Adele’s

Considering friendster is so so super slow on this PC of my sis, I shall combine all I thought of sharing in 3 different blogs. So this is gonna be quite a blog. It’s what I gathered from the Thanksgiving Conference messages that was held in November in the States but we in Malaysia were only shared with such richness during the New Year’s weekend. So anyway, let me start.

General subject: The Lord’s Coming

- The Prophecy of the Lord’s Coming

Message 1: Being Reconstituted with the Healing Christ in the Last Days for His Coming

Message 2: The speaking of the Lord Jesus concerning His Coming

My arms stretch out to You,
Receiving You and Your Love so True,
Whenever You are here I am never blue,
Because the blessings of joy You bring me is bountiful.

My eyes open wide,
Seeing all the gifts You provide,
My wants and needs subside,
Trying to accept all You give with humbleness inside.

Ripping out my heart,
Tearing off my soul,
Bare my emptiness inside,
For the entire world to know.

Stuck in the obsession of my life,
Self-decepting that everything is going right,
Unable to tell apart darkness from light,
This is the world of mine filled with pride.

Holding tight the crown You bestowed,
For all the nations to see and behold,
That Your Second Coming they will know,
So they will prepare themselves into Your mould.

At Your Coming we praise Your name,
Rendering our work with Your Glorious Reward,
Making all our sufferings on earth nothing but more to gain,
Our Morning Star we will follow in one accord.

- Our preparation for the Lord’s Coming

Message 4: Being faithful in Service in the Lord’s Commission and in His Gifts

As I pursue You in life,
You showed all is but a lie,
For how can You make me do things so despicable,
Making my life on earth so unbearable,
If what You say of Your Love is true,
That You Love to death all who follow You?
What is my existence on earth for?
An example of how low a man can fall?
Why bother letting me know Your eternal riches,
When all but I can experience?
Yes, You have separated me,
Not only from the world but from Your Economy,
I am still wondering what is my purpose,
As now, there is nothing I am worthy of in the heavens or on earth!
What properness have you taught?
What teachings have you brought?
What drunken company have you sought,
For me to be in and rot?
What gifts or talents have I been entrusted,
None other than by You, oh Lord Almighty?
All I seem to be doing is busy getting rusted,
Tell me again why did You make me?

From this message, the main thing is we must steadfastly do is to pursue in Life and stay faithful and prudent slaves of God. Amen!

Message 6: Having Dispensational Value to God in the Last Days to Turn the Age

For this message, I didn’t know how to (actually, it’s late and I’m lazy) rhyme my words as I only have mostly questions that are unanswered. So I’ll just type the questions. Although, I did write a stanza during the meeting:

I have always wanted to serve You my whole life,
All the while thinking I’m Your Heart’s delight,
Little did I know that I’m the very one You spite,
And left me all alone now to wallow in the wound of my pride.

Death: Physical and Spiritual

1. What is death?
2. What does death mean in these circumstances?
3. How is death like?
4. How do you or can you revive yourself?
5. If what is said is true that you can flee death when you’re filled with life,
a) How is it possible to sink so low into death when you are so high in Life?!

b) How can one die suddenly even though they live a very healthy living?

6. Just as one dies physically, one can die spiritually for this same reason (example):
“Your time is up. It’s not that I don’t Love you but it’s your time to go”.

However, it doesn’t ends there. But my story ends here. Am afraid will just be crapping away now that I’m dead, dead tired. Nighty!

I can’t believe I’m typing this for the second time. Aaaarrrgghhh!! Friendster is so pissing me off. Anyway, this is what getting stuck in a two hour jam on the Federal highway can make you do:

The Agony (Part 3)

How could you,
When I told you not to?
You didn’t give me due respect,
You treated me like trash.

I must have been possessed,
To allow you to do to me the very one thing I protest,
How could I be so naïve to your loving reasons?
When in actual fact, it is plain lustful nonsense.

I can’t believe I sold and destroyed my spirit and body,
To my God’s and my one true Enemy,
I am torn that I gave myself and my God up so cheaply,
To a Satan’s low-life nobody.

How could I have been so stupid,
To ignore all signs that showed you never wanted to commit,
Only needing me to satisfy your primal heats,
And someone to control anyhow and anytime you want at your finger tips.

Now you left me in ruins,
Living life like a mannequin,
Maybe spiritually I may recover,
But physically and mentally I can NEVER!

-Adèle- (7.28pm)

I can’t remember what I typed here at the bottom but it’s something about the worst jam I’ve ever been in on the Federal highway with the super heavy downpour and flood. And oh yes, we should always count our blessings, I arrived home safe, in one piece albeit numb legs and sore feet though now it’s aching everywhere. Anyways, I’m so beat. It’s 2.30 am for crying out loud!! I’m not a nocturnal and you so know it! So good night and sweet dreams…

About the Lord’s Recovery …

From a lowly human perspective of the situation in Malaysia

Hot:

1. The high peak Divine Truth – the richness is immeasurable, unsurpassable and it is increasing day by day

2. The Divine attributes and living testimony of some dedicated saints who slave for the Lord is amazingly admirable

Not:

1. Communication – very weird this one. How can you build up the saints if you can’t commune with each other? This communicaion I’m talking about ia a sister to sister talk and brother to brother level. It’s so taboo to talk about life as a human on earth here in the Recovery. All you should, can and must talk about is the Divine life. There shouldn’t be any brother-sister contact in any way. Not even eye contact from miles away or you’ll have raised eye brows staring back at you. No wonder we have so many spinsters (mind you, most of them DO want to get married though some really truly love the Lord and denounce their soul-life for Him. This I admire and always thought of doing but I think I can’t live a lonely life. As I said above, I’m saying this from a human perspective.) and brothers marrying saints from denominations or unbelievers (talk about not getting yoke with them and all!!). I think communication is the key to build up anything from a healthy loving christian home and family to the Body of Christ. You can’t just keep saying Hallelujah to a saint who’s down without finding out what’s bothering him or her! You should ask and lend a spirit building prayer. It’s funny that on the surface you see that everything is perfect to what the church wants, where everyone’s separated from sin and no brothers or sisters are in contact with each other unless they are old, married or not. But behind the scenes, you have all the young ones sneaking behind your backs either with each other or with outsiders. Talk about being hypocrites! In the meeting hall, you behave decent and all. When you’re out of the meeting hall, you can just hang out among yourself or in an outing, you can have closeness and fun. Can somebody tell me what’s going on? Like last night, we had a home meeting in our house. It was raining when the time the saints had to leave and there were limited umbrellas. So anyway, the elder let everyone else go first and there was however still an extra umbrella. I offered it to him but he said it’s ok and talk a bit to my dad while waiting for his wife to come and get him. But they ran out of things to say and there was silence so I offered to shelter him to his car – I didn’t know where his wife went (must’ve been sheltering other people). Then he said, it’s ok again, I’ll wait for my wife (another funny thing in the Recovery which is on the one hand true but let’s just be practical here. You don’t call your wife, wife, you call her ’sister’. So if a brother of a marriable age is talking to you about his sister, please clarify with him, is he’s talking about his sister, sister or sister, wife. Same goes when talking to a sister about her brother). I mean, hello?? You’re old enough to be my grandfather if I were to already have kids. You have to keep such a distance?? It’s not like I’m gonna touch you when I shelter you to your car! Oh please! How shallow is that?? Then why is it ok if a young brother (youth age) shelters me or my mum to our car? I really don’t get it! And I got reprimanded by my dad about what a stupid thing it was for me to do that (offer to shelter) and embarrassed myself and the elder! I’m not embarrassed at all! I’m disgusted and raging,fuming mad that he can’t have self-control and had to push me aside so as not have any contact with me! Get a life!! I really can’t see any other logic of this. This is how retarded I see the situation of communications here in the Recovery though I’m not sure how is it like in other countries ‘coz I do see good communications in Thailand, the States and Canada.

So as you can see, there are only 2 hots and 1 not for the Recovery in Malaysia. And this is what they will say from the previous sentence which I will tell you: "Obviously you’re in the Lord’s Recovery for its hots and not its not right? So what’s the complaint?" Who’s complaining? I’m just voicing out my query of the situation from my innocent guileless observation, that’s all! It’s not that I can’t elaborate the hots points but you have to experience it yourself to actually understand what I’m trying to say. I elaborated the not because:

1. It’s bothering me

2. I believe you should understand a situation through a case study in order to take action(s) whether to rectify or not

3. Praying for the Lord’s shinning on me and the saints in Malaysia to bring each other closer to the Lord for the building up of the Church at all levels and not just at the spirit level because I’ve experience countless times, your spirit may be in tip top condition but yet you still fall because your mind, body and soul is your stumbling block and you don’t have the support of fellow saints. It’s very horrifying when you realize that you’ve fallen so low and there’s no way out. (I guess that’s when you dare to post words like this up in your blog!)

4. Hope we will start communicating like normal crazy lovers of Christ who cares for the Body which is made up of the saints.