When All is Lost…
The Only Hope in My World
This is my quiet time,
I am in this little world I call Mine,
Only having You on my mind,
Wondering if all my troubles You can unwind.
Hoping and praying and wishing,
If ever again in You I can start believing,
That all my days of joy with You I will again be reliving,
Instead of painfully sweet memories that just keep refreshing.
I hate to think of the past,
Especially awful experiences that only seem to last,
In times like this I wish I was dust,
That I may be blown away with the wind at dusk.
I can only exist in my world,
For there is no place for me in Yours, I’m told,
Why did You promise me Your treasure throve,
But only gave me a token of Your gold?
You make me regret,
You make me cannot forget,
You trapped me like the fishes in the net,
For trusting You, this is what I get.
Sleepless nights, aimless days,
Haunting me every night and day is the image of Your face,
Pondering if there is any point of Grace,
To take away all this sufferings of disgrace.
Knowing yet not knowing still,
If my life now can ever be fulfilled,
Coming back to You doesn’t seem to be the choice of my will,
But to distant myself, I can’t break the bonds of letters between us that are so tightly sealed.
There is no where I can run to,
There is nothing I can do,
I don’t see the point of writing this to You,
But I guess there is no harm in letting You know how I feel.
Even if You can forgive me,
Forgiving myself I do not foresee,
I know we cannot just let things be,
So, maybe I should just hang myself from a tree.
Why, oh why, won’t You let me go?
For whatever reasons I do not know,
I wish You can just let me melt with the snow,
At least then, I may fade and evaporate with glow.
How guileless am I,
To follow You blind?
Thinking we were one of a kind,
Especially that You were, are and will always be mine!
My world You no longer are,
From now on I shall see You from afar,
If You love me, You will keep Your door ajar,
And receive me if I come, like the only precious missing piece of Your broken heart.
-Adèle- (8.34pm)
