Adele’s

Then There Was Your Guiding Light

As I pen these thoughts of mine tonight,
With no one but me in sight,
Feeling lost and lonely, not knowing my plight,
Then there was Your Guiding Light.

No matter how much I struggle to put up a fight,
You put me at ease by making everything right,
Just when I thought it is time for me to take flight,
Then there was Your Guiding Light.

Along my darkened road You walked beside me shinning bright,
But I am still groping around for You because my eyes are shut tight,
It is too late now to change the past even though I try with all my might,
Then there was Your Guiding Light.

Through all the years, day and night,
You let me know and experience what You are like,
How could I have let You and myself down in just a night?
Then there was Your Guiding Light.

Your Light I want to follow, please don’t let it out of my sight,
Maybe if you take away my sorrows, I will have the strength to search for Your light,
To me right now there is no tomorrow, until I find You in my arms held to me tight,
Then there was Your Guiding Light.

Continue to lead and guide me on this path that leads to You, my Knight,
That when I open my eyes, I have only You in my sight,
And the rich enjoyment with You I shall again delight,
Then here is Your Guiding Light.

-Adèle- (7.45pm)

It’s lunch time and I’ve been having a headache for the whole morning. I feel sick, I’m flushed. So i decided to take my mind off work and write you this. I’ll be pretty busy this week and next so guess I had better spend more time here blogging. haha!

The Darkened Road (The Agony Part2)

Winter’s gone, spring is here,
Whatever the season, I still hold you dear,
I see you in my thoughts, I see you in my dreams,
I smell you everywhere, whenever I breathe.

I can’t let you go,
Neither can I erase you,
Just thought I’d let you know,
So that you can tell me what to do.

So many questions unanswered,
So many actions unmeasured,
But I know the one reason we did not last,
Was because we did not leave what is past as passed.

A heartbreaking torture,
That seems to never will go away,
Causing my eyes to moisture,
So sudden at anytime, anywhere and on anyday.

Getting through each moment,
With thoughts of you suffering in another prison,
Where hell is the limit,
And that you truly deserve it.

But if only it were so simple,
Then I wouldn’t be going through what I am feeling now,
Lonely, shattered, trapped and gasping for air in a losing battle,
For this prison I am in has no way out. 

-Adèle- (1.07pm)

Alas, lunch time’s over. Talked to the credit controller next to me. Now don’t feel so awkward working here and sitting in this area. Stalker guy who sits next to him keep looking over when I was talking to him though. Anyway, I still don’t feel so well. Pray for me! Take care and God bless…

Hello, hello!! I actually…. Hey! Is this purple? It’s ok. It’s my other favourite color anyway. My best friend, Serene and I love the combination of blue and purple! Anyway, where was I? Oh yea, I actually wasted one and a half hour re-organizing half my phone book in my mobile (‘coz it’s a new mobile and the contacts were a ‘lil disorganized). But after awhile I got sick of it so I stopped and decided to waste my time on doing something more ‘productive’! Sigh… I’m so so tired and sleepy! I finished my other presentation slides very early this morning and I can’t remember what I did after that ‘til lunch. Was so glad when lunchtime came. My fellow 2 trainees and my new friend Mika (she has a Japanese dad and Chinese mum) and I went to La Manila in Midvalley and had a hearty lunch. It was on Mika. So sweet and nice of her! We’ll be going to Dang Wangi next week ‘coz the 3 of them keep talking about this place that has very nice western food and cakes where I’ve not been and don’t know where so they’ll be bringing me there. Next whole Monday we’ll be having some traffic count activity at Watson’s, Midvalley. Think it’ll be boring but hope it’ll be interesting. Gosh! Backache! Need stretching!! I really don’t have much to type ‘coz I’ve been a good girl and finish all that I need to do and I don’t wanna do any reading online. I think I’ll read a couple of books given to me by my Chairman and Financial Controller. But I’m kinda lazy to read those books at the moment. Longing to go home to my Harry Potter! I just read about Carpe Diem by my friend Lavanya but I’m so sad to say that there’s nothing for me to Carpe Diem today! Oh well…

I know I’ve got poems to type and post for your read but I’m so just not in the mood right now. All I want is to snuggle up in my bed and sleep! Haiyo… now got problem with my intranet connection! Sigh… leceh la!

Hmm… I just tried typing a verse and  it was horrible! Humph!! This is so frustrating! Oh, only 40 minutes more, then I’m off! Hehe…

A day at the office

Just sitting on my comfy black chair,
Stroking my fingers through my thinning hair,
At the screen all day I stare,
‘Til my eyes and body are getting the unhealthy scare!

Can’t believe this I’m saying,
My past three weeks on the job has been boring,
Just sitting around doing nothing,
Most I do is mouse clicking and restroom visiting!

Listening to the credit controllers,
On the phone with the customers,
Sometimes very rudely asking them to pay us,
Will never want to do their job even if it’s the last choice on earth!

Stalker guy still behaving weird,
Don’t understand why he don’t say a word,
Think he’s shy or a coward,
All I’m sure is, getting to know him I’m not looking forward!

Waiting for time to pass,
Five o’clock cannot come soon enough,
In another twenty minutes I’ll be gone in a rush,
To be home with my family that I love so much!

This is what I experience everyday,
I can’t stop wishing to get away,
To a scintillatingly serene bay,
Where I can just relax and brace the beautiful sunset ray.

-Adèle- (4.46pm)

Okie dooks! That’s about killed enough time and long enough a read for you. Now, giddy up and get back to your work. Chop-chop! I’m gonna pack up my stuffs now and head for home sweet home. Aahhhh…… au revoir!

It’s raining, it’s pouring, the old man is snoring, he went to bed and bumped his head and couldn’t wake up in the morning!

This is the most productive day since the week began. I finished my powerpoint slides for my presentation of Lux. It’s beautiful! Well, that’s what i think of it so it doesn’t matter if it’s ugly in anyone else’s eyes. I spent a good two and a half hours on it!! Now, i’ve spoiled my eyes beyond repair and have to wear glasses! I’ll post a pic of me in them and you let me know how good i look, k? =Þ And i also have that syndrome, whatchamacallit? where people who sit, staring at the pc screen for an hour too long. whatever, it’s killing me! got bad headache too! ear-ache also from having the earphone stuck in my ear the whole day! not only that, listening to the same 8 songs i downloaded! yawn…

I actually wanted to abstain from typing in my blog today but it seems not to be. sigh… ‘coz i’m sick at staring at the screen already! well, i shall try to make the best of it.

Time

It is four twenty two,
I’ve nothing else to do,
So here I am typing this to you,
To make you bored too.

When it is said, “time heals”,
What does it actually heal?
The pains? The regrets?
How can it when memories don’t forget?

Be it good times or bad,
They are all experiences we have had,
To add spice to our journey in life,
That we may have stories to tell before we die.

This is the story of my time,
Which you can know without paying a dime,
Maybe in a different time and place,
It will be a different case.

When I look back now, this moment,
I think my life has been pretty balanced,
With good and bad experiences,
To complete my life’s puzzling pieces.

Nothing has been certain for me,
I just let my life be,
Knowing wherever my life goes,
It is guided by a Divine Shadow.

I am living my life still,
Not really in the valley, not really on the hill,
Perhaps somewhere in the middle of the sea,
That’s the life of Adele Chee.

-Adèle- (5.04pm)

Actually it didn’t take that long a time to type. I stopped after “…Divine Shadow” half an hour ago to chat with my colleague. I’ve to cut it short now ‘coz I’m late to pick my mum up already. Now I’ve fulfilled my promised poem. Hope you had a good read. Buh-bye….

As the title suggests, it’s been a good day yet bad day. Let’s see what good has the day been?

Good:
1. I actually managed to think up of an idea for one of my projects
2. I didn’t waste lunch money ‘coz I brought porridge from home
3. I wasn’t so bored in office today ‘coz I brought my earphones (though 1 side’s not working. Sheesh!) and listened to some songs I downloaded off the net (‘coz my silly pc’s USB port doesn’t work so I can’t transfer files from my MP3 player)
4. I had enough money to buy all the stuff my aunts need
5. I had enough hands from my colleagues to help me carry the stuffs to my desk. Later, one of them will help me carry some to my car. (I hope!)
6. I made a new friend in my office and found out she lives very near my house and I’ll be picking her up for work everyday starting tomorrow ‘coz poor her have to take the bus everyday and have to wait for it before 6am. Sometimes she has to wait for more than 2 hours and end up late for work! Poor dear…
7. I’ll be picking my mum up from work later which I nearly couldn’t because I was suddenly suppose to meet my manager to present one of the assignments he gave. Good thing my colleague wanted to leave early and called my manager to postpone the meeting to tomorrow morning. Yay! We are all too tired to present properly anyway.

And now to the bad side…

Bad:
1. Been sitting and staring at the pc screen the whole day (longest time ever in my life!) which leads to ~
2. My eyes are failing me
3. I’m having a terrible terrible headache
4. I’m fatigued due to lack of sleep during my holiday
5. I nearly didn’t want to type a blog because I didn’t have anything to type about.
6. One of the staff called us new trainees a stuck up lot (she’s really loud – whole floor can hear her when she speaks)
7. I feel sick after such a sedentary and  monotonous life at work for the past few weeks.

Well, you look at it this way however, it’s seems to level-out to an ok day. So we’ll leave as such. It’s been an ok day for me. I’m just looking forward to get some energy after dinner to read my Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. It’s been a very long overdue read. Well, I would like to go on and on but my colleague wanna leave now and I need him to help me carry some stuffs so I’ve gotta leave too. See you all again in my blog soon. No worries, poems coming soon! Just be on a look-out. Tata folks!

Hmm….heave a heavy sigh!! yet another boring day at work. well, at least today i planned something to do - READ! been reading articles after articles since 8.30am (it’s noon now), on the pc. eyes soaring and sleepy. tummy not hungry ‘coz been sneaking curry puffs i made yesterday into my mouth. brought 6, 3 has entered the valley of darkness filled with acids and alkalines in simpler terms, called enzymes. then why am i still here typing?? well, just taking a break from my read. wonder if my brains can function after lunch (which initially i didn’t plan to go for) to have a discussion with my colleague for our next project. sigh…. again! so boring…zzzzzzzzzz……………… i wish! brain malfunction, can’t absorb facts that i’m reading, can’t think of anything, feel more like a zombie! wonder if i’ll have the zest left at the end of the day to wash my little car. it’s so dirty! i didn’t have the time to wash it for quite a while now (shall not state the duration - don’t wanna get unwanted remarks!) hehe… i think i shall go have my lunch now then see if i can think better. then maybe i can type something comprehensible here. hope you didn’t waste your time reading this trash. i’m sorry for you if you did… and thanks for lending your support in my boredom. hope you’ll continue to have a wonderful day!

The writings below were inspired by Kelly Clarkson’s song Because of You. I heard it one time too many yesterday. So I decided to take the essence of the song and present you….

The Agony (Part1)

These past few days,

I looked back on all your ways,

Tried as hard as I may,

I can’t find anything good to say.

We were wrong from the start,

When you began playing with my heart,

Reeling me in from miles apart,

Never showing the true intentions of your heart.

There was no closeness,

Only passionate coldness,

Keeping me in darkness,

Taking me away from my universe.

I should have fled when I can,

But I was just so blinded back then,

By all your sincere pretense,

Thinking you were my only love’s beginning and end.

I can never forgive what you have done to me,

I can never again find my inner peace,

I cannot and will not ever just let you be,

I want and need you to suffer for eternity.

My mind, body, soul and spirit you have destroyed,

I should have known you were Satan’s toy,

That our romance was just a ploy,

To keep me from my God Whom I love and enjoy.

A million apologies will not work,

Even if you kill yourself I’m already hurt,

I was once a high-spirited carefree bird,

Now I’m fallen to the ground covered in my own blood.

-Adèle- (9.03pm)

Not much of a holiday after all. If it were, I wouldn’t be typing in this blog now. My little mind just can’t stop working. I still have 4 more poems on the way. Sigh upon sighs!! I never meant this for pleasure reading. I apologize for any uneasiness during your read. Just a briefy, had fun with kids this holiday. You’d be surprised with the amount of joy they can bring into your life no matter how complete you think your life already is! Well, gotta go. Save my grandmother’s story for next time. When I have the time to blog but nothing to blog about! hehe… Cherio!

This is my second blog for the day. This is bad! This is sad!! Getting paid to check my email 10 times (knowing there’s no new email) an hour and to check my friendster 20 times (knowing there’s no new updates) every 30 minutes!! Then, have a super long lunch break (2-3 hours) and back to the job description above. I’m so bored, I can’t think. That’s why I haven’t type the title for this blog.

I just realized this morning that I’ve used Mon, Wed and Fri in my blog titles. I’m left with Tue, Thu, Sat and Sun. This means I’ve gotta be extra extra careful with using my days now. Shall only use it in times of emergency! haha… About time sound creative anyway.

Let’s see if i can whip out another illogical poem. Hmm……………………….. nothing seems to be coming to mind. I wanna write something that can be dedicated……… Aha!

The Sacred Ring

A ring is in a shape of a circle,
Bearing in mind what it symbols,
A circle is never ending,
Signifying a love that’s everlasting.
A ring is sacred when given in love,
Holding the giver true to his words is none other than the Holy One above.
A solemn promise is made,
When the holy vows are said.
A ring exchanged is not just for fashion,
It shows each other’s love with passion and devotion.
A lifetime of struggles, can always be endured,
When love for each other is pure.
A ring worn after the ceremony,
Should always be a reminder to ward off infidelity.
A simple slip of lust,
Will cause a complicated slit of the heart.
A ring worn virginly into eternity,
Bears no meaning of life lived completely.
A statement from loved ones around can only do so much,
For who, but only God can tell the matters of the heart.

-Adèle- (4.15pm)

There goes my time! Haha… another 15 minutes and I’m out of here! Can’t wait!! 4 days break! woo-hoo!! Though won’t get much rest since will be entertainning outstation guests. Whatever it is, a fun filled weekend’s what I forsee! Happy holidays folks!! cherio…

Good morning everyone!! It’s pretty empty in the office. I’m very very free obviously! again… haha… so I went through a poem by a fellow poet friend of mine, (of course, he’s a way better poet!) and found one I can reply too. You know who you are, hope you don’t mind! Here it goes :

Never Forgotten  (a reply to Unremembered)

Yes, I remember you.
How can I not remember the weight of such a heavy mule?
Distant I seem, but distant I wasn’t being,
My light and warmth was not taken, that was how I was feeling.
You were so engrossed with things in your head,
You didn’t even notice me beside you, dead.
Again, I do remember who you are,
Like a mirage I can only see from afar.
Visions and prophecies you yourself claimed I’ve given,
But never once did you show me they were well taken.
Hand in hand we used to walk,
You never listen when I talk,
I can’t understand what sight of my wants did you see,
When every time all you do is look past me.
This love you profess you felt so strong,
It was just my love overflowing on you tons!
Of course, I remember your heart,
It’s joined to mine and can never be apart.
If it’s my love you are craving and enduring,
Then why from me you are leaving?
If my will is all you are longing to do,
Listen now to what I tell you.
Get your face up now from my feet,
And bring a kiss to my lips,
That city on a hill we shall be,
Forever and ever, you and me.
No more running, no more hiding,
Let us just express our loving feeling.
As I’ve said, you, I’ve not forgotten,
Never had, never will, even ‘til I’m dead and rotten.
Prove yourself yet again to me, real,
Grab this hand of mine I’m offering you,
I assure you, you won’t see tomorrow rain,
Because you and me are together again!
So leave now this fake world for the fakes,
Let us embark on our journey of a together that will never ever break.

-Adèle- (9.20am)

So, what do you think? Sigh… i’m so so bored! one of my colleague’s so smart, running late! we already planned to go back early today. Actually, for me, it wouldn’t be early since I came in at 8am, we are allowed to leave at 4.30pm.

I think I’ll publish this up now and play around with all the features offered by friendster ‘coz i see my friend’s blog to be way cooler and more interesting than mine. But don’t expect much changes to my blog. I’m a plain, simple, boring person and I’ll always be so. Hope you had a good read. It’s a pretty light read today. My brain’s pretty empty to fill up this blog of mine today. Besides, I doubt anyone would be reading this, this week. Happy celebrating and partying people!