Adele’s

It sure is a Red Monday ‘coz i’m wearing red pants! who would ever have thought Adele would be wearing a pair of red pants??!?? would’ve worn a red shirt too but decided not to attract too much attention (as it is, i have one very unwanted attention in the office already! the guy’s so creepy and luck upon luck, i had to be in the same elevator as him this morning! sheesh… good thing his friend was with him so he didn’t bug me. although he did try to get close. scary!). so am wearing a pink top. you must be wondering why then am i using blue for my fonts. well, it’s ‘coz blue’s my fav colour. and if you’re wondering how come i’m typing yet another blog, well, quite frankly, i also don’t know why! ‘coz i’m definitely not as free as i was last week with 4 projects to work on this week (that means i’ve to cram 5 days work in to 2 - today and Wed. for those of you who don’t know why, it’s ‘coz we are having the Deepavali and Raya celebration here in M’sia and it’s public holiday tomorrow, Thu and Fri!).

anyhow, it’s my blog so you can’t tell if i can write in it or i can’t. hmm… just to say a little about my earlier two blogs, i had quite a few response although not in the form of posting their comments on the blog.(thanks Mich for using the technology provided and post it on the blog. follow mich la.. if i post your comments then others will think i perasan!hehe..) I had quite a few sms-es and calls! wonder how’s it like when i get my book published! haha… i know a definite hand-full, no, two hands-full of people who’s waiting in anticipation for my book. gosh! again, regrets upon regrets, why didn’t i seize all my free time and work on it before i started work??! i definitely can’t move on til i publish a book. just one will do for me.

can anybody give me suggestions of some fun activities to do but it has to be a girl thing? and another activity to do that encompasses beauty? your help will be greatly appreciated.

I think i’ll type a poem again when inspiration strikes. it came last night but just awhile. sigh… i feel like typing one now but i’ve gotta get to work. maybe just a verse:

Being with you here on earth,
is like the planets in the universe,
living life so diversed,
but it is what they deserve.

Not everything goes as you plan, a
nd if ever you feel that you can’t stand,
all you have to do is leave everything in God’s hands,
He will stop you from falling into quick sand.

Savour every moment, savour every minute,
so that whenever you think you’re losing it,
your memories will show you every situation you’ve been in,
that’s when you can look up and think straight and start living!

-Adèle- [Just Live]

I didn’t plan this, it just came. I want to continue 3 more verse but i really need to get back to work. hope everyone’s having a red-hot-blooded Monday! please remember to get back to me on fun activities!! happy celebrating this whole week with food and drinks and fireworks and more food! haha…

Tears are running down my cheeks,
a glimpse of our past I peeked,
guidance from my God I seek,
that to me, He you may lead.

Nothing more from you I ask,
nothing less from Him I request,
just faith in Him may you possess,
that all your troubles He shall put to rest.

Thinking of you, missing you,
making it hard for me to forget you,
moving on in life is what I must do,
but how can I when there is no life to look forward to?

Did our promises mean a thing?
Was what we had just a fling?
Am I not worth keeping and loving?
Am I better off losing?

Where was I when you decided our separation?
Was I anywhere in your consideration?
Was breaking my heart your intention?
Did you ever think of its prevention?

Leaving me out in the cold,
dark and lonely I am, you were not told,
telling you all this makes me seem bold,
knowing you are no longer here for me to hold.

I am in pieces, unpatchable,
’til my tears run dry I’ll still be emotional,
for recalling our memories are uncontrollable,
if only everything between us was just a fable.

-Adèle-

Composed at 12.37am and completed at 1.00am. This is another boring read to put you to sleep. I hope I accomplished it for you. It worked for me!

This is my first blog ever. Why am i typing this blog? It just seem like a logical thing to do on this beautiful casual Friday morning at work where there’s nothing to do til my meeting at a time i don’t even know! Also, since evryone’s having a blog, i thought i’d better keep myself in the same league. Anyway, with the workload i’m getting and seeing more to come, typing this blog now seems to be a good idea since i doubt i’ll have the time to do this from the week after next on. So, looking at things, this might be the first and the last blog from me though we can never tell the future. Can we? Casual Friday. What i’m wearing? A white long sleeve Miss Sixty top from the USA with a pair of faded blue Levi’s and a pair of black Reebok’s. Although, i wanted to wear my new white Umbro England Football Team jersey (all the way from the UK. thanks Fairuz for the present!!).

What’s on my thoughts? How to organize a couple of brands activation for next year, how to imposed my treasurer authority on my fellow annual dinner committee members to work within the budget, how to juggle my time with another 2 projects coming the week after next and especially how to manage my emotional and mental health through all this. It’s tough being a manager. You not only need to manage yourself (like being a student), you have to manage the organization and the people working in the organization (be they your subordinates or fellow managers and even the people above you!) to build the business, to generate profit, to rule the market!

Stress is a word that’s taboo in the working world because that will mean you can’t handle and manage things and when that’s the case, in the working world, off you go! I’m basically just wasting my time away typing, waiting to be told what to do at the moment though i should at least try to get some ideas for my projects now. But i’m not ready to go yet. sigh… i’m such a boring person! but hey, i didn’t ask you to read this! well, being the nice girl i am, i advice you to stop reading now because continuing your read will put you to sleep. of couse, please continue if that’s what you want to achieve.

It’s great working here. I can’t wait to be confirmed and apply for expat work. I really want to travel the world,  see what this world’s made of. Are the wonderful stories of the world that i’ve been told just a fable?  Wonder what kind of people the world’s made of. i’m sure there are lots of wonderful people in the world to make this world so wonderful. However, when it comes to good and right, there always must be a bad and wrong. Good thing that there’s more good and right to fight the bad and wrong. Having just come out from THE experience in my world, i can vouch that there’s more good than bad but there’s no more right than wrong. But i suppose if one is blinded by what one believe is true, it’s hard to make one see what the right and wrong are in one’s ways which leads to regrets in others who is forced to move on as no ammends can be done. When people say "move on" to someone, what do they actually mean? when they say "be strong", how do they expect the person to be? In a situation of a divorce or separation, demise or illness, bankruptcy or joblessness, losing a child in an accident or miscarriage, how does a person "move on" and "be strong"? how does the people involved in the situation "move on" and "be strong"? From a lowly human perspective, i see no point in being strong when there’s nothing to move on to when you have pain and regrets weighing you down. And because pain and regrets inter-relates, how can you take away the pain when you can never take away the regrets? in that way, how can you ever "be strong" and "move on"? Right here, right now, i can’t see how anyone can move on from their regrets. to me, they must not have regretted what they did really, to be able to "move on".

Then again,  life in regrets is very ideal for optimum work as one can "be strong" and "move on" in the needs of things to do for OTHERS. Never again can life be the same with regrets in one’s life because then, one has no life anymore as the one’s life is taken to people around them instead. In short, life in regrets equal to the living dead.

There, I managed to waste my whole hour spilling thoughts based on the latest happenings and events in the world of regrets. When there comes a time like this that i’m available yet again to type another blog, i shall venture on to the topic of "be strong" and "moving on". I know you just had a horrid read.. that was the idea.