Adele’s

My first attempt to song-writing… not too sure of the song title yet but I think I will go ahead with…

Charade

Sitting here, ticking my time away,
Staring there, pretending that I’m wide awake,
Writing now, of songs that don’t mean a thing… yea…..

*Chorus:
Hell, I can’t believe I trusted you,
You’re so damn cruel,
But I thank you,
For the things you said,
For the way you act,
What a big jack-ass,
Yea… I thank you…

Bubbles burst, watching fantasies fade,
Living now, in a life that isn’t fate,
Because I, I’ve learn to play charades…

*Chorus:
Hell, I can’t believe I trusted you,
You’re so damn cruel,
But I thank you,
For the things you said,
For the way you act,
What a big jack-ass,
Yea… I thank you…

**Bridge:
So, I keep on,
Moving along,
Acting my part,
Keeping you close to my heart,
That you will feel the pain,
For dragging me into this stupid game!

*Chorus:
Hell, I can’t believe I trusted you,
You’re so damn cruel,
But I thank you,
For the things you said,
For the way you act,
What a big jack-ass,
Yea… I thank you…
For the things you said,
For the way you act,
What a big jack-ass,
Yea… I thank you…

-Adele- (13.12.2007; 8:15am)

I’m still playing around with the tune and melody so I can’t record the song yet. Please do feed back though. Maybe I’ll run this song through with my Cornetto Love Perhaps: Season 2 contestants since they are such wonderful musical talents! =)

Sorry for not blogging in ages, I actually had 3 in mind since Sept but I just never had the time to get around to it. Anyway, I hope this is as entertaining as it is suppose to be!

Loves…xoxoxoxoxoxo

Still

As I sit here with nothing to do,

Only empty thoughts running through my head,

Trying to imagine how life will be in the near future,

I find myself recalling random phrases once said,

“My mama always tells me, life is like a box of chocolates”,

“You want to know the difference between us? I have class and you don’t!”

And yet, I’m still lost in my thoughts of nothingness,

What is wrong me? What is coming over me? I need to be in control!

Alas, time is still passing and nothing is filling up my mind,

Can’t believe I’m just sitting here, typing, trying to make words rhyme.

So, as one of The Lion King’s soundtracks song titled, Circle of life,

What does it mean? Life goes round in circles? Like karma maybe?

I think there’s a certain amount of truth in it, whether it’s actions done to another,

Or the reality of life’s process from the death of an aged man to a newborn baby,

Here I ponder on the journey life has brought me so far,

On the one hand, it’s surreal and unbelievable, on the other, what else, if not so?

It is a good or great thing being where or who I am today?

Comparing to the lesser known, perhaps I am, comparing to the legends, I’m just a Jane Doe,

Is this a sign that I’m not content with my life? If I’m content, does it mean I’m ready to die?

All these questions are provocative yet I stare at it and only heave a sigh…

Moving along at every tick of the clock, but back to square one all the same,

Life is a journey forward according to time, but living it always seems a journey to the past,

Every now and again, I find myself at the beginning, which people however, kindly call it a crossroad,

Is life supposed to be a maze? Or is centrally located at the Bermuda Triangle? Feeling lost one moment and the next for air it gasped,

Questions, oh questions, many have been posted to intellectuals,

They may score a hundred and ten on facts and figures but can’t even answer a simple one as, what is the meaning of life?

I know that I’ll still be left clueless when I finish writing this, still stuck in the rut that I’m in,

Well, as many always say in situation like this, "I’m only human", asking whys even though knowing there’s no appropriate answers to the replies,

So, I best begin my journey now, my solitary journey to the past,

To figure out answers to get me into the future, knowing that home base is where I’ll come back to anyway, at last.

-Adèle- (26.07.07; 2.05pm)

Goodness gracious!! for some who didn’t catch a single episode of this season’s American Idol except Jordin Sparks’ audition, i’m soooooo into the finale for her (AND i can’t believe i’m blogging about her!!!)! can’t get enough of her. i’m totally blown away and indeed proud and happy for her!! and i don’t even know her! personally or even as one of the contestant on the show and also her progress since the season started!

I’ve caught all of her performances for the entire season last night and downloaded all the songs she sang (and listening to them over and over again - *my sis should be slapping her forehead now going OH NO!!…. sorry, mei! can’t help it. it’s just me.) and including the latest This is My Now. i think she carried out the song beautifully well. It totally IS her song and her NOW.

I stayed up so late last night to watch for the second time, her final performance in the show. might catch the finale again for the second time tonight just for her. oh my gosh! i’m getting fanatic already!!

Anyway, i had to listen to This is My Now a few times to get the lyrics ‘coz i couldn’t Google it. here it is peeps:

This is My Now

There was a time
I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell
Hiding from myself
There was a time
When I was so afraid
Thought I’ve reached the end
Baby that was then
But I am made more than my yesterdays

This is my now
And I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My fears behind me
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then
This is my now

And I have the courage like never before (yeah…)
I’ve settled for less
Now I’m ready for more
Ready for more

This is my now
I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My dreams behind me
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then
This is my nowwwwwwwwwwwww

Can’t believe the love I see
My dreams behind me
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then
This is my now
This is my now

Okie dooks… back to reality now from Hollywood. sigh…. reality’s not looking or sounding as nice. but i suppose we can’t have it all eh? at least i’m pretty sure things will get better as they already are seeming to get into places on their own. Thank You, Lord!

Gotta go get some rest now. not feeling well. can’t believe i’m doing all this when i’m not feeling well. Jordin must be some girl!! =) have a Sparklingly beautiful Friday and weekend ahead y’all! xoxo….

Crush

Another tough day to get by,

Nothing to do with the on goings around me,

The haunting thoughts of your most adorable smile,

Or the quick flashes of your charms weakening my knees,

Nonsensical smiles creeping up on my face,

Incessant blushes getting me into trouble,

Only you can make my heart race,

Like a wild horse away from the stable,

On guard I have to be when it comes to you,

Persistently my mind will turn your way,

Everything then seems mistily concealed,

Zooming in and out of foolish hopes and dreams at the bay.

-Adèle- (04.05.2007; 3.32pm)

Just thought i should blabble a little here. i’ve been having tons of poem ideas but haven’t got the chance/time to pen them down. sigh….

Then again, i’m sort of to blame. hmmm… maybe not. well, it’s not my fault that Wentworth Miller’s so intriguing!! Can’t stop watching Prison break day and night this week!

Well, i was after all sick in bed since Sat. you know, the usual flu, sorethroat, fever… am still having it actually. but i think, being the workaholic that i am, coming to the office would probably cure me faster than just lying in bed.

Anyway, i was just wondering if someone who really matters would be so sweet as to dedicate a poem as such to me one day:

A day of life in this chaotic swirl…
Drifts me away to another world…
Emeralds n diamonds covering a thousand mile…
Leading me to this amazing girl…
Eyes of an angel that makes me smile..

Doesn’t it just make you go "Owh………..so sweet………" and maybe "That’s romantic!!" ? =)  Anyway, a friend of mine wrote that and sent it to me. i’m not sure if it’s for me though. if it was, then he’s really sweet. too bad he’s taken. haha!

Well, i’m just yapping along this time. have been having lotsa Prison Break dreams everyday this week. whether it is during my night time beauty sleep or my get well soon afternoon naps. i keep dreaming of criminals and bars! oh, and Panama!!

Michael and Lincoln better get there soon and let me finish the second season this weekend. then, i can get back to my tear-jerking Grey’s Anatomy. =)

i’m just missing everyone. my bestie Rai will be leaving to the States on the 15th of May. Sob sob… My best friend Alethia will be back in June but i’ll only get to see her in July. Anyhow, we’ll be spending wonderful 17 days in Australia together in Aug. i soooooooo can’t wait!! =) then, my dearest sister Lydia will be back in July. looking forward to seeing her.

This month should be quite a busy month of work and shows. anyone caught Spiderman 3 yet? too bad i’m ill and can’t go to the movies this week. Hoping to catch My Fair Lady in the middle of the month. Oh, and Pirates of the Carribean at the end of the month. and so many meal appointments!! another fattening Adèle up month! sigh…

Ok, before i bore you all to death. i shall stop now. my dear handsome friend Afiq’s coming up with my lunch (Chicken Cornish from Secret Recipe’s) anyway. by the way, he’s a chef! what more could a girl ask for?? i hope his girlfriend thinks the same! =)

Toodles y’all……..

Jeremy

Simple and pure, honest and kind,
Easy words, you to define,
These are but only the obvious,
You are more than what can be seen on the surface.

The warmness of your friendship,
And guidance of your leadership,
Can very much be felt,
Every time you extend a help.

Effortlessly sincere, unwithholdingly caring,
Never judging but always listens with understanding,
Experienced and full of authority,
Yet treating everyone with utmost respect and humility.

A definite God-sent blessing,
To whosoever’s path that comes a-crossing,
Wise words often you advice,
This is you, Jeremy through my eyes.

-Adèle- (04.04.2007)

I wrote this for my beloved director who’s retiring next Friday. framed it up in a golfer frame from Lovely Lace ‘coz he’s such a golf-maniac. haha…. I just wrapped the gift and as all Adele’s gift, it looks so pretty and too pretty to touch, let alone open! (IF i can say so myself =D). Anyway, i’ll be missing this old guy tons. thank God for technology of HPs and emails! =) Only wrote 4 stanzas ‘coz that’s all that can fit into the frame w/o looking too crammy. He’s definitely way more than what i wrote.

Who wants me to write them a poem? Hands up!

The black hole in
our hearts….

My baby sister has just left the nest,
Finally! At home I can find some rest,
Without her whinny self putting my patience to the test,
Honestly though, this I must confess,
I’ve been crying my tears out till none is left!
So here I am pouring out my distress,
Howling on and on about this little munchkin pest,
I miss turning her room into a great pig-sty mess,
And getting her mad at me and making her stress,
Oh, to be a good sister I do try my very best,
But I am not what I am today if not for having her on as my
vest,
Keeping me on my toes is what she excels,
Dragging me back to the centre when I occasionally stray
west!
How I long to be in her embrace and smell her baby breath,
Holding her firm and squeezing her tight till she is all out
of gas,
Oh, little heaven’s angel, do fly home soon with this quest
~
To ease the agony of the family and home missing you to
death!
I will whip you a feast upon your request,
We will put up a show and present you a carnival fest,
So that the next time you take to leave, your heart will
face duress,
Knowing who and what you are leaving behind for a world full
of trauma and anxiousness!

-Adèle- (12.02am; 10.03.2007)

p/s: Just kidding Mei! Make us the proudest with your
achievements in the medical industry! =) But I am serious and do mean about the
‘us missing you’ part!! Love you lots Mei Darling!! *sob sob sob* (I really am
a cry baby!! Sigh….)

To all the wrong guys knocking on their door………

Next!

How do I un-painfully tell you this?
How do I un-hurting-ly refuse your wondrous gifts?
How do I un-patronizingly make you understand…
That you are just not my man??

Maybe you thought that we had a connection,
Maybe it was just the physical attraction,
Maybe all you are feeling is infatuation,
For me, I sure am enjoying all the attention.

The matters of the heart are simple yet complicated,
The matters of reality needs to be calculated,
In this world of havoc, we have to strike a balance,
Visible and invisible requirements are weighed by individual preference.

Maybe here I can blatantly say,
Maybe here I can be as clear as day,
Maybe here I can selfishly have my way,
Give it up and save yourself from future dismays.

Just because we get along so well,
Doesn’t mean we will be hearing wedding bells,
When you burst into song,
I sincerely wish I would be kidnapped immediately by King Kong.

Maybe it is your crooked yellow teeth, and even your cheesy-sleazy smile,
Maybe I can’t stand your out-of-this-world hairstyle,
Maybe your muscles are too prosperously piled,
Accept the fact, your pheromones drives me away running wild.

I never claimed to be perfect, I never expect you to be,
But you and I are so much more different, than what plain eyes can see,
It is not only your slits for eyes and nose,
Neither is it just about your stubby fingers and toes.

Maybe you are overly self-sacrificing,
Maybe you are just being suffocating,
Maybe you need to do some personality re-adjusting,
Whatever it is, that time you take, on my life I am not wasting.

Good for me if you stop banging on my door,
Good for me if you don’t call me anymore,
Oh, do if you must and can’t help it,
But please always remember our friendship is strictly platonic.

Maybe it is the feverish-tingle I don’t feel,
Maybe I don’t fancy your awesome hot wheels,
Maybe with you I can’t get a satisfying meal,
Face it kiddo, you laugh like a seal.

Help me out here, cut me some slack,
Please look into the mirror and check out what you lack,
If it is not a face full of pimples and pot-holes,
Most likely it is the pockets empty and hollow.

Maybe this is not about you at all, but ME actually,
Maybe I’m just too demanding and whinny,
Maybe I’m dreaming of the most perfect fantasy,
Honestly, I’m just being one tough cookie.

-Adèle- (24.02.2007; 6.47pm)

This poem is purely fictional,
So please don’t get too emotional,
The writer just loves to riddle,
When her fingers have nothing to fiddle.

Am I cool or am I awesome?!!
Am I hot or am I extravagant?!!
Deep down inside I know I’m neither,
Just the simple, boring, old me no one bothers.

=) Cheers!

p/s:     This is what happens when you are in Sitiawan with nothing to do,
           Besides getting stuffed the whole day with tons of food,
           And lying sick in bed with a ridiculously irritating flu,
           But a mind so active to make a rhyme or two.

While listening to Bro. Ed Mark share and also with my little sis by my side as sources of ‘inspiration’ (in quotes because i don’t think that’s the suitable word to describe it but since i’m having the holiday brain jam right now, i’m not gonna crack my brains to figure out the word to match!)…..

Walking with God

In the church life,

It doesn’t take you a million years to transform,

All you have to do is enjoy Christ,

And declare that He us Lord.

—– > *Intermission… obo Ada Mei

I have no ideas about poems,

Whatever I write seems to come out rotten,

Can never make it rhyme for reason,

That is why, until now only one I have written!

—– > back to messages…

If you let the Bible shine in you,

Every morning sun can’t beam on you,

For the Lord will come forth from within you,

Making everything and everyone be enlightened by you.

Affirmation and critique is made,

No matter what has been said,

For there is only so much human understandings can take,

Be in spirit then for everyone’s sake! =)

Christ’s spirit is life-giving,

His death and resurrection replaces everyone and everything,

When you have Him, nothing can be more fulfilling,

For we are complete whenever we are in Him.

Just say Jesus, I love You,

To switch on your spirit,

Let His spirit surge within you,

And flow out greater than the rapids.

The romance with Christ,

Is sweeter than wine,

Its significance has been paid with a price,

He loves us with His life,

An invisible chain, us to Him binds.

-Adèle- (19.01.2007; can’t remember the time but it was pm)

This was really impromptu, so, apologies if it doesn’t make sense. Just felt like writing that night. I always learn better this way also. hope you guys have had a pleasant read.

I’ve gotta get back to work now. *dreads………..* hear from me again soon ya! of course, soon is very relative according to my watch! toodles peeps…..

My Valentine’s

No flowers for Valentine’s this year,

But for that, I won’t shed a tear,

For all the people I love who are no longer here,

In my heart and soul I cry and hold you dear.

Flowers on your eternal bed,

When no more comprehensible words can be said,

I look over you with bowed head,

In sorrow my respects are paid.

The world is still passing us by,

In our world it is just you and I,

Red and swollen wet eyes are beginning to dry,

Cherishing the truth that our love will never die.

In my joy and pain I know you will be there,

Unto eternity our lives will be shared,

Not a single moment will be spared,

Even the little gesture of you caressing my hair.

Valentine’s Day is not about gifts and candle lights,

It is about remembering why and how our love ignites,

Embracing each other with affection, holding on so tight,

Makes the night beautiful, perfect and right.

I shall let go all my sadness now,

Although living life without you I still don’t know how,

With the assurance of your love whom the Divine bestowed,

I am sure on the right path I will stay endowed.

-Adèle- (11.12am; 15.02.2007)